Had a terrible dream on saturday night when sleeping with him... Maybe I should say Sunday morning ba... Lol... We went MU on saturday night so went home around 4am plus... Slept at about 5am ba... Because I got to wait for my hair to dry up abit before I can sleep... If I dun wash my hair, it stinks... MU always make my hair stink... Woke up on Sunday morning... Not really wake up ba... The weather was so dark and cooling... Thats why I din wake him up and let him sleep more instead lor... In the end I also fall back asleep... Then I had this terrible dream... Hai... In the dream, I was with him having our romantic outing... Then we bought some supper for ourselves to MY home... Think its his first time to my place ba... So he just sit quietly at the sofa... Din realised that my dad jio his friends to our place for MJ... So no choice but to let them have our supper... My dad got this very slutty kakis for his MJ... Can't really remember her look... Only remember she got short hair and her hair were abit blonde... So as they were having a break from their MJ session, that woman, feel like calling her B***H, went to chat with my Darling... They were chatting so happily and were touching here and dere... OMBG... WTH... When I saw them I was freaking damned pissed... Guess what I did... I turned over the table in front of them... (Woo~~~ Fierce sia... I'm really damned piss lor that I can feel that feeling even right till now lor... Stupid right? Getting angry over a dream... Wahhahaha...) I pushed that woman to the wall... Stared at her straight in the eyes... Scolded the shit out of her... Bloody hell... I'm the Daughter of your BOSS lei... How dare you come and touch my BF... WTH... Everyone was looking at us... But he just walked away quietly while I was scolding her... Think after that she left and I went to look for him... He was smoking at the corridor... I went to talk to him but he din say a word... Feel kinda disappointed... So went to help my mother with the mess... I asked my mum, 'Did I do wrong?'... My mum said I din do anything wrong... That woman had been a slut in the company... So its right that I did that... Guess he din feel that way ba... He just feel that I'm unreasonable and throwing away his face in such a situation ba... Thats why he choose to ignore me... After that he left without a word... I dun dare to call him... So I sms him... "Do you still love me? Am I still ur ger?"... But he din reply... I was very sad in the dream... Very sad and scared that he will really leave me... That feeling is so strong... Really very strong... That feeling was the same as last time when he wana leave me... Was feeling so hurt and upset... In the dream, I start to think back of all the things that we did together... Like staying over at his place every weekend... I though that I will never had a chance ever again to stay over at his place le... The feeling in the dream was so real that I almost thought that I was in REALITY... Suddenly I was awake by his sudden movement... I woke up... Then I look at him straight away... OMG... Its a dream... What the... I was so glad that it was just a dream... I tried to wake him up but guess he was too tired to be bother with me... I nearly cry... That feeling was still very strong in my heart... Can really feel it... Now then I realised that my feeling for him is getting stronger than ever... I really can't live without him... He really stand a very important place in my heart... Please, Darling... Dun leave me... Dun... Glad that its just a dream... Hai...

~can't do without him in my life...~